Funny how last night I was tired. No, I was literally exhausted. I didn’t have the energy to write a real blog entry, let alone put forth the effort to accomplish even one thing on any of the projects I have piling up. I just felt discouraged.
And yet, the very next morning I got out of bed and rode my bike to work for the fourth time this week. And at lunch I closed my office door, shut the blinds, and played my guitar for the fifth time this week. As I rode home today (arriving home a good thirty minutes before the rain began) I thought about how good it felt to ride. I thought about how I had accomplished something I wanted to do. I just took the time to do it. Did I play amazing guitar? No. Did I get faster on my bike? No. Did I have fun? Yes. Did I achieve a goal? Yes.
I’m back in my old office at work. It is half the distance compared to where I was working for the last four months. So the bike commute is a bit easier on the family schedule. Plus there are dedicated bike paths for almost the entire trip. Why would I not ride?
I shouldn’t let myself get discouraged like I did last night. I was tired. Exhausted even (as I said above). But most importantly I was discouraged. The time constraints that I have willingly placed on my life can feel overwhelming at times. And most of the time constraints in my life are good things: a wife I love, kids I want to be with, a job I enjoy, a sport I thrive on, a religion I believe makes me happier, etc. As for prioritizing, most of these things take precedence over guitar. But that doesn’t mean I have to complete some family “project/task” before I can play the guitar. It just means I have to strive to work it into all the other stuff going on… like during lunch at work.
So with that, I will bid you all a goodnight. I’m still exhausted. I have to get up way to early tomorrow. But I have broken some of my problems into small pieces like small acorns.